Cinnamony fairy

Well, the house looks like it's Christmas,  dangly ball window is up, we squeezed in a tree, house smells of cinnamon apple loaf, and giant hash brown!
But amongst my friends there's not much spirit left.
One friend is reliant on her daughters wages to be able to eat. Merry Christmas!
One has been waiting 13 weeks with no money for his disability to be sorted. He has no food in cupboards, no leccy in the meter. Making him cakes every week. Joy to the world.
Another friends partner just left her in so much debt she can't afford food. Jingle all the way.
And so it's hard to believe what the politicians keep telling us. Economy getting better,  people better off, what a joke.
We went to the village craft fair this morning, didn't buy anything, mainly because everything I saw I could make! And I don't really have the pennies to spend on tat. No order for tomorrow again. It's dead.
BBS x

Harumph

Ok, how much more does there have to be. Oldest family friend turned up today, eyes red rimmed, his wife went to the doctors and she has a lump. I tried to reassure, and told him if he needs anything, including potatoes fried in bacon grease...His favourite...All he has to do is ask. She's going to hospital next week, he's gonna keep me posted.
BBS. ..Ho hum

Bah cheap mint imperial, can't afford humbugs

Really not enjoying December!  Trucks broken. So no delivering tomorrow. Mind you the orders this week were pathetic, 2 boxes of celeriac, bag of Jerusalem artichokes. £19. £15 of which goes towards diesel. 
Self employed isn't being the pleasure it should be, so no £4 earnt,  seriously.
Other wholesaler also didn't want anything. Zero zero zero.
This week I will earn £3.
Pity I've paid out £1800, and have this month's electric bill to pay.
And as we know oh is nice. Too nice. He hasn't been paid by local garage for last month's work. He told them Monday he wouldn't do more till got cheque...guess what...done 2 more jobs since! Still no cheque!
And he's having to pay for bits to fix truck now too. And using little beetle to run around for garage. Using my petrol.
I'm thinking of going on strike.
When I put the oven on to bake for dinner as we've run out of bread I wondered if I aught to just stick my head in instead. Then I noticed the oven floor had a rust hole in it and went off on a tangent of oh Lord,  don't let that stop working too. 
Think positive. ..
Food to the table, coal to the hearth and love in times of trouble.
Then poor ds came off his ped this morning on ice. All battered and bruised.
Really not having a good week...did I mention I came down with a cold Saturday.  Sinus blocking fun!
BBS. .

Moan moan moan...

I'm sorry...All I ever do is moan...maybe it's because I don't have a proper girly best friend to moan at...so blog is my best friend. ..Therefore you, dear reader, are now my best friend! 
So, I told you about oh's friend...who wouldn't help him back. Well, he was the one who conned oh into buying generator a while back, told him he could pay it back bit by bit...tanner down, tanner a week job. Last week he changed his mind, as I'd sold dad's truck finally. He wanted all of it. £1800 to be precise.  I didn't buy the generator, they purposefully did the deal behind my back. The truck money was supposed to pay for diesel for the tractors, seeds and plants. The money filled my tin.
Now my tin has £20 pounds in it. I told oh how that makes me feel. And he will be feeling it too when we go shopping this week. I know that's mean,  but he needs to THINK!
I hope my veg orders are good this week! Or he can say goodbye to ham rolls.
We live and learn, and we have quite different attitudes to money. I like a cushion!
And I want to $#@#% ¥£#$@ his "friend"!
BBS x

Fairy is feeling grrrrreen

I'm sorry, but I need a vent. A family friend passed away last week. He was 90, farmer, ww2 veteran, all round interesting. His funeral is Thursday in the village. Now fred came down today so I told him, keep in mind he'd known this person easily 40 years, and had been friends with him. Do you know what he said when I told him about the funeral...."I don't think I'll bother". I was gobsmacked, I managed to say really but what can you say when someone can't be bothered to pay their respects at a funeral of a friend.  And yes, he's still coming down, but not as often!
So I've been stroppy...last week oh's friend came down. This is the friend who only ever calls or turns up when he wants something.  A couple of weeks ago oh asked him to go look at a car with him. He hummed and harred and said he was too busy. He doesn't work mind you but he was too busy. So...He turned up last week (when he was supposed to still be busy)...stopped oh working, sidetracked Jones the steam for 4 hours to look at his laptop, took bits off oh's spare land rover,(without offering to pay for them)  wanted heavy duty plastic (and oh gave it to him grrr) then went! If he wasn't oh's best friend I'd have told him to f*$#@#@ off! We've never asked him to help apart from that one time and we got a no. All the time I've known him all he's done is want. Life is too short for toxic relationships, especially whenever he visits or calls I get mad at poor oh, who just gives in to him. He has been the cause of every single argument we've had!
Pah! BBS x hopefully happier!

Jar savers anonymous

It can't just be me who saves jars just in case. I remember great grandmother Gladys always had a stash. Thinking about this today as I was given 2 as of homemade chutney.  And it got me thinking, I know most years I make more preserves than I need, jam, chutney, you name it I've had a go at making it, and I always make more than I can eat in a year, and when I'm really happy with the results I'd love to share them. Maybe I should start a local preserve sharing scheme....
In other news it's advent filling time. As dd didn't return her special advent calender for 4 years now I finally have it back I've turned into mean mummy and won't let her have it this year...so instead she has an advent jar! Just hope it doesn't still pong of the pickled eggs it had in it before!
BBS x

Hiding...

The fairy has been hiding...I know I've been very quiet, I guess I just haven't been feeling very fairy.  So I thought I'd share what we did this halloween.  That's me...anime maid! Ds and beloved too...and my mate☺ 109 trick or treaters!  In memory of my friend. Now just gotta think of what we can do that's bigger and better than a giant spiders Web for next year...I think we spent £8 in total on decorations...It was all sticks and fleece! BBS. ..well ill try x